Five Suicides at NCSU. The Unbearable Loss of Our Kids.

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In response to the five students that have recently taken their own lives during the current academic year, Lisa Zapata, senior associate vice chancellor of academic and student affairs at N.C. States University expresses our universal hope, “I think that we would all wish there was and easy fix. I wish that was something that we could do right this second and solve the problem, and no one else would die.” (N&O, 2023) The unfortunate truth is that there is no simple solution. For all of our efforts to remind our children that, “It’s not the end of the world.”, that, “I know that it seems like it will never get better but it will.”, and/or other platitudes and miscellaneous statements that we mean to be helpful and supportive, . . . suicide continues to be (and in fact is becoming the more prevalent) cause of death among college-age young adults. Per the CDC, “Suicide is among the leading causes of death for young adults and college students (CDC, 2020). Students with depression or anxiety are at increased risk for suicidal thoughts and behaviors (Casey et al., 2022).” Sadness and anxiety seem to be the universal here, and it generally begins before college years. Per Rosenbluth and Hammond, “37% of high school students reported they experience poor mental health during the pandemic, and 44% reported they persistently felt sad or hopeless during the past year.” (N&O, 2023)

Why? Our children enjoy a standard of living and what the world as a whole would perceive as a very privileged existence. Most enjoy good physical health, are free of hunger, attend quality schools, both public and private. What in the world is happening here? I mention these because Zapata reminds us in her commentary that “food insecurity, housing insecurity and financial pressures”, are among the struggles that affect college student mental health. I do not discount or underappreciate these challenges, but are they new? Is the “struggling university student”, really a novel thing? I just don’t think that the explanation for an increase in suicide can be laid neatly at the feet of these stressors. The authors suggest that efforts to create a “greater sense of belonging” and offer greater (and easier) access to counseling services. Social groups (fraternities, sororities, etc.), clubs, social networks of all types have been at the center of university life for over a century. The availability of counselors-to-students at N.C. State exceeds the ratio recommended by the International Accreditation of Counseling Services. Likewise, these partial solutions (which are already implemented and in practice) appear to largely, fall flat. This is a proverbial “WTH” moment here.

Sara Pequeño shares another frightening observation about the suicides at N.C. State and generally. “. . . suicide is oftentimes private and isolation. Several of the cases this semester, they weren’t even on the university’s radar screen.” In 2021, I lost a close friend to suicide, . . . a forty-two-year-old, professional and entrepreneur, by all outward appearances a successful, reasonably well-adjusted adult. A bad break-up put him into a downward spiral, one from which he could not recover. In hindsight, statements that he made, things like, “Do you think that I am going to be ok? Do you think I’ll feel better later?”, haunt me as do my simplistic responses which were largely, “Don’t worry, bro. You’re going to be ok. The sun will rise again tomorrow and with it, the promise of a new beginning, new adventures, new accomplishments. Talk to me about finding your happiness.” My ‘helpfulness’ came up short. Less than twenty-four hours after missing a lunch with me, he decided that things would never get better, that he would never find his way out of the dark place. He curled up in his shower, wrapped his head in a blanket, and shot himself. My point here is that he was an adult, a person with all of the ostensible features of a successful man, with the social connection, “belonging”, and access to mental health services to which Pequeño refers. Pequeño also states, and I find this particular line of thought prescient and instructive, “To look at suicide as the crisis it is, the university system must be willing to put time, money and effort into addressing both the root of the problem, and its symptoms.” (“Root” being key, and emphasis by me, not the author). Unfortunately, the root may often be laid at the feet of the student’s parents and his or her in-home environment.

I’ll leave one more observation here that I believe is worth mentioning and bears particular significance to the extant crisis. A child of a suicide, be it parent, guardian or whatever adult role model influences the child, is statistically far more likely to commit suicide. “Losing a parent to suicide makes children more likely to die by suicide themselves and increases their risk of developing a range of major psychiatric disorders, according to a study led by Johns Hopkins Children’s Center that is believed to be the largest one to date on the subject.” (Dr. Holly Wilcox, Journal of the American Academy of Child & Adolescent Psychiatry, 2010) With one’s parents and role models, a child establishes his or her first sense of “belonging”, a factor identified by Zapata. Is it really a stretch to understand that a college student’s contemporaries and colleagues become his or her surrogate family, that seeing one die at his or her own hand would not have the same deleterious emotional effect as a parent’s suicide?

N.C. State University is my undergraduate Alma Mater. My father was a professor at N.C. State for forty years. One or more of my three children will in all likelihood choose to attend the same excellent institution. I want to be able to trust my kids’ safety to a system that I love and which gave me a rich academic and university experience. We have to get this right.

Celebration of Brotherhood ~ GM Fitch, Constantin Poindexter, PM Gregory Coats

This photograph memorializes one of the happiest moments of my adult life. “Freemasonry unites men of every country, sect, and opinion, and conciliates true friendship among those who might otherwise have remained at a perpetual distance.” The moment of mutual recognition is one big step towards healing a breach that has kept our brethren that had sadly been forced to “remain at a perpetual distance”.

May the Great Architect bless these men, their work guided by the design on our universal Trestleboard, and their profound understanding of what binds us.

~ Constantin Poindexter

Counterintelligence ~ Ana Belén Montes, Another Look

Counterintelligence ~ Ana Belén Montes, Another Look

INTRODUCTION


“Cuban Intelligence operations against the United States arguably represent some of the most effective collection efforts AND penetrations of the United States Intelligence Community (hereinafter “I.C.”). The effectiveness of Cuban foreign intelligence service (hereinafter “Cuban FIS”) operations against the United States has consistently superseded all I.C. expectations and assessments of the capabilities of a small, thinly funded foreign intelligence service. Although
Cuban FIS possessed some rudimentary COMINT capability to listen in on transmissions from the Central Intelligence Agency to potential Cuban assets, Cuban FIS’s lack of access to its own sophisticated technical collection platforms forced it to master HUMIT tradecraft in order to accomplish its ends, and indeed evidence demonstrates that it did well. History offers a plethora of evidence of both failed I.C. efforts against the Cuban FIS as well as Cuban success against I.C. efforts. In his seminal work on Cuban Intelligence “Castro’s Secrets: The CIA and Cuba’s Intelligence Machine”, Brian Latell appropriately observed, “Castro was a supreme, unchallenged spymaster.” (Latell, 2012) Again, Cuban FIS has practiced excellent defensive counterintelligence as well as offensive intelligence collection. The defection in 1987 of Florentino Aspillaga finally alerted the CIA to the extent of Castro’s spy network. “They were in a state of shock. Nothing like this had ever happened to us before. Aspillaga was the most informed and highly decorated officer ever to defect from Cuban intelligence and his defection was a turning point in the CIA’s attitude toward Cuba. Until that point, we grossly underestimated the Cubans. We never imagined that little Cuba could run an intelligence service that was world-class.” (Latell, 2012) The Aspillaga counterintelligence debrief and investigation revealed how thoroughly compromised I.C. operations in Cuba were. The unmasking of Ana Montés, an enormously successful penetration of the DIA, provides yet further evidence of Cuba’s mastery of the spy game. “Big Brother” style Internal security and counterintelligence mechanisms on an island nation geographically smaller than the State of Florida poses far less of a challenge than recruitment of high-level penetration of arguably the best intelligence community in the world. How did Cuban FIS accomplish this feat? The simple argument that Cuban espionage tradecraft is not sufficient to explain how it was able to turn a decorated I.C. member into a traitor.

Counterintelligence theory since the inception of the Central Intelligence Agency early in the twentieth century has posited that “M.I.C.E.” is an appropriate framework for identifying potential penetration agents. More recent scholarship points to “RASCLS” (Burkett, 2013) based on Robert Cialdini’s principle of influence as a more appropriate model to accomplish this end. Adherents of both pseudo-philosophies agree to one degree or another that Ana Montes was an ideologically motivated penetration. This author does not concur. Other scholarly work casts some doubt on ideology as the sole motivator in the Montes case. “A final conclusion to be drawn from the U.S. government’s biases leads to a deeper conversation that is highlighted by the overall case of Ana Montes. Montes’s defection was characterized by novelty, an ability to evade detection, and an ability to effectively live a double life, critical skills for an intelligence officer when operating against other countries, but incredibly dangerous to one’s home country.” (Virgili, 2020) Virigili advertent or inadvertently alludes to what may be the deeper motivation of Montes’s betrayal, . . . ego. Personal ego flaws are responsible for a significant percentage of those who have committed treason. The Montes case is no exception. Cuban FIS’s ability to stroke Montes’s ego and develop her into one of that most effective penetrations of U.S. Intelligence in history is instructive. On this fact rests the purpose of the proposed thesis paper. Again, Virgili’s work is particularly instructive. “The “I” in MICE stands for ideology, one of the foundational motivating factors that lead an individual to act. While in this case, it is evident that Montes held ideological differences with U.S. LAC policy, it is not clear that these differences alone would have led to her defection. The fact that Montes did not seek out Cuban intelligence officials to defect is a critical variable in assessing Montes’s willingness to defect on ideology alone.

A second piece of evidence emerges during an interview with the counterintelligence (CI) agent, that investigated her for espionage activity later in her career, stating that disagreement does not necessarily mean disloyalty. While she was engaged in defection at the time of the statement, it brings to light that her defection was the result of internal conflict between her ideological differences being influenced by something more. This leads to the conclusion that Montes’s defection in unable to be explained solely to ideological differences, demonstrated by SLT and the application of MICE.” (Virgili, 2020) With Virgili’s identification of “something more”, this author concurs.

Research should re-focus on ego as the overlying motivator for Montes’s betrayal rather than the accepted ideological motivator as argued generally. With due acknowledgment of ideological differences playing some role in the Montes case, psychological predisposition ensured that Cuban FIS’s recruitment was effective. There is a broad consensus that the Montes betrayal can be neatly explained by ideology, supported by arguments based on the ubiquitous MICE model. “The question should aim to contribute to an existing debate — ideally one that is current in your field or in society at large. It should produce knowledge that future researchers or practitioners can build on.” (McCombes, 2019) Therefore, “The topic is appropriately narrow, research being focused on a particular counterintelligence case and one of the treason- motivators identified in the MICE model.

This topic is appropriate for analytical consideration as both C.I. case studies and general psychological principals are broadly understood, with significant scholarly research on both in current circulation. The results of answering this research question may elicit reactions from the producers of other work on the subject, precisely the purpose of scholarly work. A broad portion of the authors about betrayal in the context of intelligence will disagree with this author’s position, “facilitating”, if not blatantly triggering “scholarly conversation”. Clarifying the previous and present understanding of ideology as the motivator of treason is imperative as ideology alone does not provide a satisfactory basis on which to base current and future insider threat detection, doubling and/or neutralization efforts. Further, the matter is of absolute contemporary import. Having most recently observed the Snowden counterintelligence case, understanding the role of ego in betrayal is without a doubt, current. The following findings will likely pose a challenge to “old school” perceptions about the predominance of ideology with regards to the Montes case and open a broader area of inquiry into the significance of ego when considering the insider threats to our I.C. The National Insider Threat Task Force has stated, “Public and private sector organizations which monitor this issue all agree that instances of insider threats are steadily increasing, . . . “ (DNI, 2016), and, “the National Insider Threat Task Force (NITTF) reported that incidents of insider threats are steadily increasing.” (CISA, 2020) These statements are instructive and speak directly to the import of a better understanding of betrayal, “why research matters” on this subject. National security and economic security depend on the answers that this and other research may reveal on the modern motivators of those that would deliver privileged material to U.S. adversaries.” (Poindexter, 2022)

THE “THESIS”

The explanation that Ana Montes committed espionage on behalf of the Cuban Dirección General de Inteligencia (DGI) has rested on Montes’s desire to be consistent with her ideology. There is a consensus among counterintelligence practitioners and intelligence studies researchers that Montes justified her betrayal because of her affinity for the Cuban people and what she perceived as unjust U.S. foreign policy directed at the Cuban government and more
generally, U.S. “imperialistic” policies towards smaller, weaker republics. The argument here is that ego was to a greater degree than ideology the motivating factor of Monte’s choice to betray her country. Adherence to a pro-Cuban (or pro-third world republic) ideology is not a sufficient explanation, but rather it was Montes’s own personal attributes that allowed the DGI to successfully recruit and run her as penetration. This paper will offer evidence of the true
motivation of Montes which this author feels is better explained by ego rather than ideology, or more specifically, “Is ego the more accurate causative factor that explains Montes’s betrayal.”

LITERATURE REVIEW


“Before review of historical, biographical and informed-opinion sources one looks directly to the perpetrator’s words explaining the reasoning for her betrayal. During the sentencing phase of Montes’ criminal trial she mode the following statement. “All the world is one country.’ In such a ‘world-country,’ the principle of loving one’s neighbor as much as oneself seems, to me, to be the essential guide to harmonious relations between all of our ”nation-neighborhoods.”
This principle urges tolerance and understanding for the different ways of others. It asks that we treat other nations the way we wish to be treated — with respect and compassion. It is a principle that, tragically, I believe we have never applied to Cuba. Your honor, I engaged in the activity that brought me before you because I obeyed my conscience rather than the law. I believe our government’s policy towards Cuba is cruel and unfair, profoundly unneighborly, and
I felt morally obligated to help the island defend itself from our efforts to impose our values and our political system on it. We have displayed intolerance and contempt towards Cuba for most of the last four decades. We have never respected Cuba’s right to make its own journey towards its own ideals of equality and justice. I do not understand why we must continue to dictate how the Cubans should select their leaders, who their leaders cannot be, and what laws
are appropriate in their land. Why can’t we let Cuba pursue its own internal journey, as the United States has been doing for over two centuries? My way of responding to our Cuba policy may have been morally wrong. Perhaps Cuba’s right to exist free of political and economic coercion did not justify giving the island classified information to help it defend itself. I can only say that I did what I thought right to counter a grave injustice.” (U.S.A. v. Ana Belen Montes,
1:02-cr-00131)

The Department of Justice and preliminary Defense Intelligence press releases and information releases see to have accepted Montes’ explanation, laying the ground for post-mortems that framed her betrayal as wholly ideological. Per the Department of Defense, “Montes claimed that her sensitivity to helped drive her decision to work “with” the Cubans. Montes never suggested that she worked “for” the Cubans. In short, Montes indicated that the Cubans “were very good to me.” She was a “comrade in the struggle” against the United States policy on Cuba.” (DoD, 2005) Ironically, the same document contains statements that suggest that perhaps there is “more to the story” than Montes’ affinity for the Cuban people and the plight of countries ostensibly oppressed by U.S. foreign policy therefore one looks more closely at the Defense assessment.


Of the more authoritative historical sources of information about the Ana Montes case one looks to the post-action report produced by the Department of Defense entitled ‘Review of the Actions Taken to Deter, Detect and Investigate the Espionage Activities of Ana Belen Montes’, previously referenced. The report is partially declassified and runs one hundred eighty pages. In addition to the aforementioned finding, one also observes:

• “Montes saw U.S. support for the Contras in Nicaragua as unjust and wrong.
• Montes claimed that she was not a Communist but that she strongly sympathized with the socio-economic goals of both the Cuban and Nicaraguan revolutions.
• My sense of moral obligation persuaded me that this is what 1 had to do or I could not live with myself.” She said, “I was really doing something that was right.
• She also stated that she would have rejected any offer by the Cubans to pay for her services
• In her view, Cuba was victimized by U.S. repression and she concluded that she had the “moral right” to provide information to Cuba.
• Her ideological disposition fostered a negative view of U.S. foreign policy, and that fixation, coupled with her sense of moral righteousness, sealed her commitment.” (DoD, 2005)

With statements of such clarity, proposing an alternative explanation for Montes’ betrayal is a challenge. The Defense report however offers a few clues to something other than ideology. Within the very same document one finds, “The traitorous decision to betray her country was based on a combination of factors including an ingrained hostility toward U.S. policy on Latin America; an immature, self-serving personality aimed at retaliation against authority, . . . (DoD,
2005) Self-serving personality is an ego flaw. Dr. Leon Seltzer opines that ‘textbook’ self-serving personalities, “ . . . typically don’t show much concern about anyone or anything outside their (narrow) self-interest.” (Seltzer, 2016) The damage assessment identifies specific losses, including the loss of life that resulted from Montes’ actions, definitively showing “little concern” for those that she injured.


Further, one finds in the assessment, “In sum, she indicated that she “felt morally rewarded.” (DoD, 2005) While the current positions argue that moral reward is the expected benefit of alignment with one’s mores (ideology), it is equally important as compensation for one’s ego. “Ego needs honors in order to be validated.” (Holiday, 2016) As part of Montes’ plea agreement she confessed of the high esteem in which she was held by Fidel Castro and that her ego was
stroked by displays of affection and appreciation by Cuban Intelligence. “According to Montes, the Cubans were thoughtful of her, were dedicated to their cause, and sensitive to her needs. In short, the Cubans “were very good to me.” (DoD, 2015) Psychologist Michael Price opines, “People who are more vengeful tend to be those who are motivated by power, by authority and by the desire for status. Those personalities tend to be less forgiving, less benevolent and less focused on universal-connectedness-type values.” (McKee, 2008) The Defense assessment’s report that Montes’ actions that were, “aimed at retaliation against authority”, fit neatly within the bounds of this observation.


The Defense assessment also reported, “The traitorous decision to betray her country was based on a combination of factors including an ingrained hostility toward U.S. policy on Latin America; an immature, self-serving personality aimed at retaliation against authority; and a misguided sense of morality.” (DoD, 2005) Morality is a foundational psychological concept. Without diving too deeply into Freudian, neo-Freudian, Jungian or other arcane phenomenology, “if morality owes it authority not to rationality, but to the happiness that it promises us in social context.” (Wong, 2015), then one immediately perceives the very selfish, self-centered and therefore “ego” driven explanation.


A second source of literature that offers a glimpse into Montes is the work by J.A. Sheppard. The author states, “DIA’s senior analyst for Cuban matters, Ana Belen Montes, gave classified information to Cuban officials because she believed that country was not being treated fairly.” (Sheppard, 2019) The argument is based on the generally accepted explanation that Montes was an ideological spy. Restating that ideology was Montes’ sole motivator in entirely unhelpful however Sheppard’s illustration of causation leaves much room for further investigation. “Using MICE as a device for explaining why a person would disclose classified information is both simple and satisfying. It does risk, however, mistaking the ascription of a cause to an effect. The error is, for instance, like an association that a turkey makes between a farmer and food. Whenever the turkey sees the farmer, food follows. Since that happens every day, the turkey creates a connection between the farmer and the food. Then, one day in late November, the farmer appears but the turkey becomes the food.7 The turkey’s mistake is one of failing to differentiate between covariance, i.e., how much two random variables vary together, and the necessary connection between a cause and its effect. Roughly the same can be said of assessing behavior related to espionage.” (Sheppard, 2019) If one supposes that Montes was initially identified as a potential Cuban Intelligence asset based on outward displays of a particular ideological lean, based on Sheppard’s covariation principal one CANNOT assume that successful recruitment and running of Montes as a penetration was due to her handler merely being a Cuban and a representative of the Cuban people or prototype of oppressed Latin American countrymen, as the motivation for her ongoing betrayal. The literate offers no more content
that specifically addresses the Montes case.


One turns then to the literature emitting from participants in the investigation of the Montes case. “She spied out of conviction that Fidel Castro was both the savior of the Cuban people and champion of oppressed masses across the world, particularly in Latin America.” (Carmichael, 2007) These word by the counterintelligence operative responsible for the five-year hunt that culminated in the identification of Montes as a penetration of the Defense Intelligence Agency, suggest a clear case of an ideological spy yet other observations may suggest something more. “During the four years before her arrest, Montes was afflicted with anxiety and sleeplessness, and was regularly treated with psychological counseling and prescription medication.” (Carmichael, 2007) The question thus is why? Was the mind suffering and the body cry out, or was the treatment appropriate for much deeper, long-term issues associated with an ego issue. “Higher levels of ego-resiliency are correlated to lower levels of depression, anxiety, and stress.” (Kubo, et al., 2021) If one presupposes an ego-flaw that motivated Montes, then the anxiety, sleeplessness and need for pharmaceutical intervention fits nicely with an argument that ideology may not be the only or even the predominant factor in Montes’ willingness to betray. There is a gap here which even the main player in the counterintelligence case fails to address.


Among meaningful commentary about the Montes case, one finds content published by the National Office for Intelligence Reconciliation. In a piece on insider threats, the Montes case is directly referenced and unique among the literature, includes a comment about ego. “In the case of ideological spies (as well as ethnic and religious spies, although they are not the subject of this discussion) the reason they present such a challenge is that their motivation is more deeply rooted, being an expression of their beliefs, their world view, and their personal perception of who they are (or at least would like to think they are), what they stand for, and their place in the world; that is to say, their ego.” (Irvin, 2015) The final sentence is prescient, as is a cited self-justification of the betrayer. Michael Shermer states, “. . . the facts of the world are filtered by our brains through the colored lenses of worldview, paradigms, theories, hypotheses, conjectures, hunches, biases, and prejudices we have accumulated through living. We then sort through the facts and select those that confirm what we already believe and ignore or rationalize away those that contradict our beliefs.” (Shermer, 2011) One can readily observe how Montes’ sort of selective rationalization or better stated, selective moral compass worked for her ego, speaking directly to her superior opinion of herself and her mission of
betrayal.


Further refinement of Montes’s motivation with allusion to something other than ideology, is referenced in Michael Smith’s work ‘The Anatomy of a Spy’. “When Ana was nineteen, her mother divorced him. A secret CIA psychological assessment of Ana Montes subsequently concluded that her father’s behavior, “made her intolerant of power differentials, led her to identify with the less powerful, and solidified her desire to retaliate against authoritarian
figures.” (Smith, 2019) The simplistic response to this statement would be, “Oh, so that is why she became an ideologue.”, likening her decision to betray her country, her family and coworkers to adopting a stray three-legged dog. That assumption is inappropriate. This brief excerpt about Montes’ childhood immediately directs one’s attention to a psychological flaw, not ideology.


A brief inclusion of literature that offers some general context and precedence with regard to the motivation of those that may commit espionage is appropriate. All intelligence studies practitioners that have produced work on human assets, recruitment, etc., (HUMINT) are aware of the traditional M.I.C.E. model, and more recently the model suggested by Randy Burkett (RASCLS) which he based on Cialdini’s principals of influence. For the purposes of understanding
why researchers and investigators readily identify Montes as an ideological spy, MICE offers the explanation. Per Sheppard, MICE doesn’t offer a fully satisfactory answer. The literature authored by William Virigili offers a further suggestion that ideology is not the only answer to the Montes betrayal question. “The “I” in MICE stands for ideology, one of the foundational motivating factors that lead an individual to act. While in this case, it is evident that Montes held ideological differences with U.S. LAC policy, it is not clear that these differences alone would have led to her defection. The fact that Montes did not seek out Cuban intelligence officials to defect is a critical variable in assessing Montes’s willingness to defect on ideology alone. While she was engaged in defection at the time of the statement, it brings to light that her defection was the result of internal conflict between her ideological differences being influenced by something more. This leads to the conclusion that Montes’s defection in unable to be explained solely by a predisposed to ideological differences, demonstrated by SLT, and the application of MICE.” (Virgili, 2020) The “influenced my something more” is the focus of this author’s research.


American Spies, by Michael J. Sulick offers some interesting biographical information about Montes, some of which is echoed by Smith. Referring to Montes and her siblings Sulick states, “Just as American spies ranging from Benedict Arnold to Robert Hanssen suffered because of the flaws of their fathers, Ana Montes and her siblings were reportedly bullied by their temperamental father to the point that their mother divorced him.” (Sulick, 2013) Despite this glaring clue, Sulick places the Montes betrayal squarely within the ideological-spy box.”
(Poindexter, 2022)


RESEARCH STRATEGY


“Historiographic methodology is appropriately defined as the collection and analysis of archived material and written historical accounts of the subject matter. This researcher’s method will be historiographic, evaluation naturally accomplished by clearly understanding the nature of the findings of others, followed by the presentation of a countering arguments that dispel the tendency to simply “accept” ideology as the only or the predominant motivator for Montes’s betrayal. The framework is modern time focused however twenty years have lapsed since the unraveling of the Montes story, ample time for scholarly contribution and declassification (or a reading of the unclassified versions) of primary government-authored material to deploy a historiographic framework. The framework is broad but lends itself well to cultural, social and like phenomena. The objective of Cuban FIS was to effectively penetrate the United States Intelligence Community in order to access privileged information helpful to the Cuban cause
and valuable for barter with other foreign powers such as Cuba’s financial sponsor, Russia.” (Poindexter, 2022) Again, all of the source materials lend themselves well to a style of
historiographic work.

DISCUSSION


The difficulty with research on the causes of human betrayal within the Intelligence Community centers not on reading and clearly understanding the opinions of investigators, academic researchers and scholarly writers. Digesting post-action reports issued by government agencies is a simple task, as is reading and understanding the nature of the opinions offered by what one might consider “informed persons”. The difficulty lies in the dual need to consume and analyze psychological/psychiatric science sector theorems and apply them to the intelligence conundrum under stuff. This sort of cross-disciplinary expertise is odd and uncommon. So uncommon that a researcher is hard-pressed to find any significant volume of authoritative work applying ego flaws to the question of betrayal. Because of the dearth of work on betrayal vis-à-vis the ego flaw question within intelligence studies, an investigator is obligated to seek
similarities or adjacencies, cases of betrayal that lie outside of the intelligence sector. but Fortunate for the researcher, albeit unfortunate for those that suffer its consequences, more than ample work has been accomplished on the causes of betrayal its most ubiquitous form, . . . infidelity. While not a perfect fit, one finds that particular human frailty reported in its first emanation in the Garden of Eden, in written work for hundreds of years. From the mid-1800s
forward, the causes of betrayal have been “front and center” in psychiatrists’ and psychologists’ work with a human subject. Of the literature reviewed in preparation for this paper, psychiatric professionals that have addressed betrayal within the context of infidelity appear. The conscience choice to engage in activities that have incredibly damaging consequences to others without due regard to those consequences is a “textbook” description of infidelity. It is also an
exact description of Montes’s choice to betray her country, her family and her coworkers. There is therefore context for the fusion of current understandings about betrayal OUTSIDE of the intelligence question to betrayal WITHIN. The following observations are by no means comprehensive. Offering a definitive argument in support of ego being the overlying, determining factor in the Montes case would require many hundreds of pages of work. A complete defense of the ego-thesis simply is not possible within the time, length and resource constraints of this brief paper therefore what follows are a few of the salient observations and their corresponding arguments. To that end, . . .

The seed for Montes’s betrayal was sewn in childhood. “Montes graduated from high school with a 3.9 grade point average. But home-life proved troublesome, and a growing emotional distance was occurring between Montes and her father, Alberto. To outsiders, Alberto was a caring and well-educated father of four. But behind closed doors, he was short-tempered and bullied his children. Alberto ‘happened to believe that he had the right to beat his kids,’”
Montes explained when undergoing psychological tests. She expounded to her caseworker that her father “was the king of the castle and demanded complete and total obedience. Speaking to the caseworker, Montes’ “sister said child abuse began at five years of age and their father had a violent temper. Ana’s mother feared taking on her mercurial husband, but as the verbal and physical abuse persisted, she divorced him and gained custody of their children. Montes CIA profile stated: “Ana was 15 when her parents separated, but the damage had been done. Montes’ childhood made her intolerant of power differentials, ledher to identify with the less powerful, and solidified her desire to retaliate against authoritarian figures. Her “arrested psychological development” and the abuse she suffered at the hands of a temperamental man she associated with the U.S. military “increased her vulnerability to recruitment by a foreign intelligence service….”Montes’ sister commented that even in childhood, “She wasn’t one that wanted to share things or talk about things.” (Sims, 2015)


Montes was the product of a proverbial “broken home, a child of divorce that was subjected to intra-familiar violence and intolerance until her mother finally extricated Montes from a dysfunctional family which deeply affecting her development. With regards to ego states and their consequences, “When authoritarian regimes behave, they can so as critical/controlling parents or as nurturing, and the population are either compliant or rebellious. When they
rebel, they are not then mature enough to be adult once they are freed from the controlling parent.” (Bali, 2019) Here we see a manifestation of an ego flaw, likely the direct result of Montes’s father’s behavior towards her. Montes’s rebellion against authority was directed at her employer, her country as it was the only party exercising “authority” over a large portion of her personal and professional life. Montes’s sister, a federal law enforcement employee concurred. “Her sister believes Montes ultimately committed unauthorized disclosure to obtain power over other people, in order for her to feel powerful. Rather than seeking power.” (Sims, 2015) Further, Psychologist Tracy Trautner opines of ego-damaged children that they, “ . . . are poor judges of character and will rebel against authority figures when they are older.” (Trautner, 2017) Rebelliousness is NOT a product of ideological affinity nor affiliation. Damaged ego is.

One observes other clear indicators of the ego-factor in Montes’s general demeanor and interactions with others. “She portrayed herself as an introverted loner who did not need people to be fulfilled. She limited her social contacts to family members, individuals she met in college and graduate school, coworkers at the DoJ, or members of the condominium association in which she was active. She rarely invited colleagues to her home. At work, she
seldom left her desk, avoided office get-togethers, and cultivated a reputation for being aloof.” (DoD, 2005) In addition to Sims’s report that, “She wasn’t one that wanted to share things or talk about things.” (Sims, 2015), she offers Montes’s own words, “They [Cubans] were emotionally supportive. They understood my loneliness.” (Sims, 2015) Clearly, Montes’s Cuban case officer understood her flaw, stroked her ego and managed a long-term successful
penetration based on Montes’s pathology. Psychologist Al-Ubaidi identifies, “Need for approval enquirers to satisfy their deficit, . . . Difficulties in intimate relationships.” (Al-Ubaidi, 2017), as characteristic of the same. The descriptors are congruent with observations of Montes. One might argue that a person may not be naturally extroverted, that Montes’s “aloofness” was not necessarily an indicator of an underlying problem, however when considered in the “totality of the circumstances”, i.e., the other observed manifestations of an ego flaw, one can conclude that her demeanor was a matter of concern.

The lack of any meaningful intimate relationships should have given cause for concern. Per the Defense report, “She said she sacrificed a normal life and did not want personal relationships to interfere with her espionage activities. In so doing she dated only intermittently until her early 40s.” (DoD, 2005) While a quick read suggests that Montes avoided intimacy BECAUSE of her betrayal, the suggestion contradicted by the same report, “Montes was considered a loner
who, at times, was emotional and unyielding, . . . exhibited a rigid posture which manifested a superiority complex. One coworker described her as a different kind of person who kept to herself. Unbeknownst to her, she was given the nickname, “la otra,” which in Spanish means, “the other” or “the outsider.” (DoD, 2015) Further, the Defense report drew comparison with other counterintelligence cases. “Montes did share some personal characteristics with Ames
and Hanssen: poor interpersonal skills, a sense of intellectual superiority, and a dour demeanor.” (DoD, 2015) The picture becomes clearer as one assimilates more of the observations reported by Defense and others. Montes’s standoffishness was a manifestation of her underlying, unresolved ego issue. Montes’s sister in fact explained Montes’s avoidance of an intimate relationship. “Her sister believes, . . . in order for her to feel powerful. Rather than
seeking power, Montes may have become emotionally attached to her Cuban handlers to fulfill a feeling of security that she did not have as a child.” (Sims, 2015) Here again we observer a damaged child. Psychologist William Watson describes this behavior as a manifestation of an attachment disorder. “Difficulty showing genuine care and affection: The child might act inappropriately affectionate with strangers while displaying little or no affection toward his or
her parents.” (Watson, 2013) In the context of the Montes case, Watson’s statement accurately describes Montes’s inability to maintain a normal intimate relationship (affection to the appropriate party) and inappropriately affectionate towards her Cuban sponsors (affection for the inappropriate party). Al-Ubaidi identifies, “Difficulties in intimate relationships, . . . insecure and lack of trust in others, no clear boundaries, . . . “ (Al-Ubaidi, 2017) One perceives here yet
more evidence of Montes’s pathology that led her down the path of betrayal.

Finally, and circling back to the aforementioned definition of betrayal (in this case “infidelity” to her nation, family and coworkers), an essential element of the decision to betray is the manifest absence of empathy for those injured by one’s actions and the consequences of those actions. Psychologist Al-Ubaidi observes that the actor displays a, “Lack of empathy, respect and boundaries, . . .” (Al-Ubaidi, 2017) The subject of a lack of empathy and lack of care for the
negative ramifications on others as a result of one’s actions is an anti-social pathology and is indicative of an ego problem. “Delinquent behavior” (Watson, 2013) is observed among those that lack a normal empathetic function, an activity that Montes herself readily admitted to. “At the sentencing hearing she made a defiantly unrepentant statement condemning US policy towards Cuba. The judge responded that she had betrayed her family and her country and told her “If you cannot love your country, you should at least do it no harm.” (PERSEREC, 2004) The
statement was a confession. Lack of empathetic response is, at its foundation is a narcissistic disorder that may be blamed on damaged ego. “Narcissistic personality disorder (NPD) is associated with an assortment of characteristics that undermine interpersonal functioning. A lack of empathy is often cited as the primary distinguishing feature of NPD.” (Baskin-Sommers, 2014) “The narcissist’s True Self is introverted and dysfunctional. In healthy people, Ego
functions are generated from the inside, from the Ego. In narcissists, the Ego is dormant, comatose.” (Vaknin, 2018) Once again, one observes the oversized roll that an ego flaw plays in the ability to empathize. Once again, one may appropriately lay the root cause of Montes’s betrayal on ego. Per Irvin, “. . . clandestine life wears thin, the insider spy tends to experience regret, if not remorse, over the decision.” (Irvin, 2015) Montes expressed no such reservation at
sentencing, nor did her behavior evidence any empathy whatsoever for those parties prejudiced by her actions. Her nickname as the “Ice Queen”, is well-deserved.

CONCLUSIONS


With due consideration to “ideology” as the common explanation for the Montes penetration, “Even in the case of the ideological spy, rarely is it ever simply a matter of ideology. Like the organizations we voluntarily join or the media sources we choose to view, ideology is not the driver, but rather the vehicle through which we express our own self-concept and confirm our established world view.” (Irvin, 2015) This statement is instructive. Montes may well have
justified her betrayal after the fact by her desire to “even the scale for the downtrodden”. She stated so clearly. “In her private correspondence, she refuses to apologize. Spying was justified, she says, because the United States “has done some things that are terribly cruel and unfair” to the Cuban government. “I owe allegiance to principles and not to any one country or government or person,” Montes writes in one letter to a teenage nephew. “I don’t owe allegiance to the US or to Cuba or to Obama or to the Castro brothers or even to God.” (Popkin, 2013) Such manifest disrespect for her oath, to her family or ostensibly to anything at all speaks to the dire consequences of allowing an individual with serious character flaws access to the nation’s most precious secrets. The preceding few samples extracted from the Montes counterintelligence case should create serious questions about the wisdom of laying the cause of her betrayal at the feet of “ideology”. Within this brief commentary here is ample evidence to suggest the need for further investigation of the ego-flaw motivator.

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Al-Ubaidi, Dr. Basem A., “Cost of Growing Up in a Dysfunctional Family”, Journal of Clinical Medicine, vol. 3, iss. 3, subm. 17th October, 2016, peer review acceptance for pub. 29th July, 2017
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Save Ukraine

The unprovoked aggression in Ukraine has created a humanitarian crisis in the heart of eastern Europe. The Ukrainian people are in need of food, medical and support services from everyone that is able to contribute. I urge you to give if you are able to one or more of the reputable agencies and foundations that are answering this pressing issue. The International Medical Corps the CARE Network, Médecins Sans Frontières (MSF), and UNICEF are a few.

#stopwar #saveukraine #ukraine

Meen Aggarwal.

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I cannot believe this. This wonderful human being had such an interesting story. She provided an example of what a “mom”, is, . . . something that I did not have. May God receive her in his arms. I hope to see you again.

What is OSINT all about?

OSINT, IMINT, constantin poindexter, carlyle poindexter, masters in intelligence studies, counterintelligence

OSINT is as ancient as written word. I suppose that there were cuniform tablets that were exchanged between Phoenician government functionaries, both public and sensitive that adversaries coveted. The Greeks were particularly good at intelligence. There is a really good book about it written by Frank Santi Russell. It’s super interesting to see what value a first-generation democracy put on information gathering. What is without question is that OSINT is valuable. Wild Bill Donovan said, “Even a regimented press will, again and again, betray their nation’s best interests to a painstaking observer.”

Like the other INTs, there are some definitions that most practitioners have settled on to describe OSINT. Information collected from the “wherever” is generally not intelligence. It is data or simply information. Intelligence is generally an analyzed and polished product that CONTAINS information. The Department of Defense defines OSINT under ¨§931 of Title Nine, “Open-source intelligence (OSINT) is intelligence that is produced from publicly available information and is collected, exploited, and disseminated in a timely manner to an appropriate audience for the purpose of addressing a specific intelligence requirement.” (50 U.S.C.) The Hassan and Hjazi publication which offered this statutory definition verbatim HOWEVER they added what I think are some really important distinctions of what composes OSINT (“components” as Dr. Saar has highlighted.), as follows, “, . . .

*Open-source data
*Open-source information
*Open-source intelligence
*Validated open-source intelligence”

These components are important not only for context and precedence, adhering to the currently accepted intelligence cycle, etc., but also to offer a framework for practitioners of other INTs to identify where to offer input, and from whence to retrieve reliable and timely data, information and/or intelligence for their own purposes.

OSINT has progressed over time, but not in its essential nature. OSINT has essentially existed since cavemen roamed the earth. Ug of the ooga booga tribe probably eavesdropped on conversation between the huti huchi tribesemen to discover where the best mastodon hunting ground was. Obviously, this oversimplifies something that is actually quite sophisticated now, . . . or is it? We now have written word and motions images á la the ubiquitous YouTube, but is observation and pondering (analysis) of those observations really an innovation? My position is that OSINT really hasn’t changed at all. The medium for presentation (or mass dissemination) of information, the sophistication of the sensors that we use to collect information, the volume of collection and the high-speed computer-driven analysis of the information have changed, NOT OSINT.

There are clear advantages to the development and deployment of a rigorous OSINT capability. First and foremost is risk. Passive OSINT presents almost no risk at to either the discovery of the inquiry and the fallout if collection is discovered. Done properly, OSINT projects are discovered by the betrayal of a practitioner. An intelligence manager must consider the likelihood of discovery and the severity of loss due to discovery. OSINT falls low on the risk index. It’s just smart business.

Another big benefit but as the same time, a serious challenge is the volume of data or information. The benefit of volume is generally an increased reliability of product. There are plenty of disinformation operations in the world’o’sphere but in a massive pool of data an enormous effort and resources are required to drown out factual information. Also, a really big pool offers the input of a broad variety of assets or sources. The diversity REALLY helps stabilize analyst’s effort to draw reliable conclusions. The negative of course is how to warehouse and process the huge, HUGE amount of data that an OSINT mission or tasking might produce. This is and will be solved by quantum computing but the OSINT discipline also benefits from the less rigorous processing that a technical INT might require. The Norton piece spoke specifically to the “volume” conundrum along with the vetting challenge. “OSINT is challenging because of its volume and because each piece of information must be verified or “vetted,” often in unique ways.” (Norton, 2011, p. 66)

Among the list of advantages, “shareability” is also important. Not only is dissemination of OSINT product helpful and perhaps imperative among members of the Intelligence Community. It can also be superlatively supportive our allies, the countries with whom we share special liaison or allied service relationships. There is little risk to “sources and methods” with regard to OSINT. The real risk of improper or over-dissemination of OSINT is tipping our hand as to what is important to us AND prejudicing the asset or source, ie., U.S. Adversary: “You are looking at “x”? Oh! You must have some strategic or tactical interest in “x”! We’d better look into shutting off that faucet and since it’s important to YOU, then we’d better figure out a countermeasure.” Russian FIS does this, . . . regularly.

There are some other positive qualities of OSINT, i.e., gives a baseline for understanding the results of more sensitive information collected clandestinely; timeliness, as open sources are often in open competition as to who can “break the story” first; a great enhancement to cultural and ethnic understanding, etc., however the three main attributes above I think are the most valuable and relevant.

I need to give a hat-tip to a crowdsourcing article. The author has offered a neat little diagram to identify it but the author’s statement, “Crowdsourced Intelligence is arguably a separate collection discipline from HUMINT or OSINT collection.” (Stottlemyre, 2015) I feel is prescient. I’m not sure that this fits neatly within the OSINT discipline, most especially if the source is a member of an adversarial government, military or FIS. There are also a lot of wildcards in here, i.e., crowd motivation, crowd identity, or whether it’s really a “crowd” or not. This one merits a deeper look.

Waters, Nick, “Google Maps Is a Better Spy Than James Bond”, Foreign Policy, September 25th, 2018. https://foreignpolicy.com/2018/09/25/google-maps-is-a-better-spy-than-james-bond/#:~:text=In%20the%20words%20of%20William,interests%20to%20a%20painstaking%20observer.%E2%80%9D

Norton, Dr. R.A., “Guide to Open Source Intelligence: A Growing Window into the World”, Journal of Intelligence Studies”, vol. 18, no. 2, Winter/Spring 2011

Stottlemyre, Steven A., “HUMINT, OSINT, or Something New? Defining Crowdsourced Intelligence”, International Journal of Intelligence and Counterintelligence, vol. 28, iss. 3, 2015

Women’s Behavioral Health Expansion

THIS was a great course. Anyone involved with guardianship of a female ward, young or old should take this. The National Guardianship Association offers a plethora of really helpful coursework for professional fiduciaries and other parties that operate as guardians. I highly recommend this segment. It is truly an eye-opener about the challenges and inequities that confront women, and more specifically minority women, with helpful direction on finding resources to help them. Take it! It’s quick and thorough.

Charitable Love on Thanksgiving

charity, caridad, constantin, constantin poindexter, carlyle poindexter, beneficencia, thanksgiving;

There is no better time than Thanksgiving to remember that reaching out to those less fortunate is a blessing, . . . a blessing to both the receiver and the giver for there is no more pure expression of love than beneficent giving. It doesn’t have to be monetary or tangible, of oneself can be the greatest gift. A wise man believes, “give and make haste of it because the last moment may be upon YOU without you knowing so. Those that give food to the hungry, clothing to the unclothed, mentorship teaching to the less informed are numbered among the blessed.”

As we enter the holiday season it is right and a duty to think of those less fortunate than oneself. Charitable acts live LONG after the giver of charity is gone from this world.

Bien Agradecido, Querido Dios

constantin, constantin poindexter, muy agradecido, agradecimiento

Fulton Oursler, un pastor algo reconocido pasó la mayor parte de su vida recordando a sus feligreses la importancia del “agradecimiento” personal para con el Gran Arquitecto del universo. Cuenta la historia de “Anna”, la criada negra que le cuidó como niño y le proporcionó la lección más importante de su vida. Así contó, . . .

Un día cuando tenía siete u ocho año me encontré en la cocina con Anna, termiando la preparación de una humilde cena.  Al sentarse a la mesa dijo ella, “Bien agradecida, mi querido Dios por mis viandas.” A tal cual respodió el niño, “¿Anna, qué es una “vianda”?” Ella explicó que vianda era lo que tenía para comer y beber. El niño, siendo niño dijo, “Pero, usted tendrá de qué comer y beber si a Dios le diera las gracias o no.” Anna, vió la oportunidad para enseñar algo importante al joven.

Dijo Anna, “Usted tiene la razón pero todo sabe mil veces mejor cuando usted es una persona agradecida.” Procedió a contar el sermón de un pastor que le había enseñado a Anna un juego de “agradecimiento”. Se trató de buscar siempre razones para ser un alma agradecido. Contó ella, “Un día fui al mercado para comprar pan para la casa y al pasar por el lado de una tienda de ropa exclusiva noté qué tan lindas eran las blusas.” Respondió el niño, “Pero Anna, usted no tiene recurso para comprar cosas así de caras.” Anna le explicó, “Yo lo sé pero en mi mente, juego muñecas con esas blusas.  Sueño ver a su mamá y su hermana vestidas en cosas de semejante belleza. En esos momentos  le digo, “Muy agradecida, mi querido Dios, por jugar lindo en la mente de esta vieja.” Continuó Anna, “Como el otro día al volver de compras una fuerte lluvia me cayó encima. Había escuchado de las duchas de los baños modernos, y hasta les he visto a usted y su hermana en la suya. Pensé, ‘ahora tengo mi PROPIA ducha’ y en ese momento le dije, “Muy agradecida, querido Dios, porque usted me regala un pedazo del cielo cada día.”

Pasaron los años, el niño llegó a ser hombre y la vejez llegó a Anna. Le llamaron un día para decirle que Anna estuvo a punto de la muerte y el joven volvió a su ciudad natal para estar con ella en los últimos momentos. Le vió a ella en cama, sufriendo de dolor insoportable y el joven se preguntó, “¿Me pregunto de qué tenía Anna en aquel momento para estar “agradecida”.

Anna abrió los ojos por última vez, viendo todos sus seres queridos, y los muchachos que ella había criado a todo su alrededor. Cruzó las manos sobre su pecho, sonrió y dijo, “Muy agradecida, mi querido Dios por tan buenos amigos y familia.”

 

Ode to the Fallen 9/11

Brian Sweeney,  in a voicemail for his wife from United Flight 175, which crashed into the World Trade Center said, “Jules, this is Brian. Listen, I’m on an airplane that’s been hijacked. If things don’t go well, and it’s not looking good, I just want you to know I absolutely love you. I want you to do good, go have good times. Same to my parents and everybody, and I just totally love you, and I’ll see you when you get there,” We remember you. Thank you for being all of us on that day. To you, . . .

Heartbreaking to be perfectly healthy and know that your time has come, . . .

the regrets, . . .

unsaid words,  . . .

unhugged family,  . . .

unmended fences, then, . . .

Will it hurt? Will my kids be ok? Did my life matter at all?

Your bravery, your essentially American way of unifying with your fellows to do the things that must be done,  regardless of the cost, . . . we will remember you, always. “We’ll see you when we get there.”